The Trouble With Little Boys

     The trouble with little boys is they grow up to be big boys. They come into your life and suddenly you want to spend every waking moment with them. You can’t imagine what your life would be like without them and you can’t remember what you ever did before they became a part of it. You drink in their smell, you live off the sound of their voice as they tell you they love you and then steal your heart making you theirs for eternity. Then they turn around and give you a little boy… and suddenly you realize you’ve been trapped yet again in the same snare, but you wouldn’t have it any other way. You’ve never felt so complete before you became so completely dependent on the love you have come to know from these little boys.
     I never in a million years could have imagined how beautiful and complete life could be before I had my sweet husband and now my perfect little boy. I used to feel like I had to wait so long for some of the things that everyone else seemed to get so quickly. Once I found the person I wanted to spend forever with, I had to wait for him in the service of the Lord, I didn’t know he’d be mine yet, but I sure did like him. Then I had to wait to see if he’d still love me after I returned. Turns out we had a similar idea in mind and though it didn’t all happen overnight, I decided I wouldn’t have had it any other way.
We had to wait a little longer than we really wanted to start a family together, but we had more time to grow closer to one another. We became the best of friends and learned and laughed with each other every day and now we have this beautiful little boy and I think we’ve both realized we wouldn’t have had this any other way as well. Our time together, just the two of us, helped prepare us not for a better or stronger love, but a more complete one. A love that I am already seeing is binding us in another beautiful way. I am so thankful for this wonderful new addition to our family and I sure hope that the Lord blesses me with the ability to care for my two boys in the best way possible so that they never doubt my love and devotion to them. Welcome to our little family Ethan David- you are loved more than you could possibly know…at least more than you could possibly know just yet.

     

The Waiting Game

38 1/2 weeks- no need to see my chubby face!

Now no matter how much they tell you not to get your hopes up that you will go into labor a week or two before 40 weeks, I think that it's impossible not to. I have tried to convince myself over and over that there is no point in thinking that it could possibly happen any sooner than 40+ weeks so as to not be hopeful but there is an extremely strong optimist in me that just won't let it go. So here I am at 38 1/2 weeks along hoping that any moment could be the moment- not that I am really having any strong signs- but still- if I laugh/cough/sneeze/etc. too hard I may just have an accident- so it seems that it would only be fair to put an end to this right?! lol

I have also decided that this waiting and the unknown are taking a toll on David!!! The other evening as I was sitting on my pregnant woman's throne (i.e. toilet) I was yet again attacked by a bug, this time a big brown spider which was threatening my pleasant experience. Naturally since I didn't have shoes on and am definitely not coordinated enough to kill one from that position anyway, I hollered out for David to come to the bathroom- next thing I know he comes flying to me all frantic asking what happened and what he can do- thinking that I've gone into labor. I hadn't even thought of that scenario and it seemed perfectly natural to yell for him to come kill the spider- anyway he said that I can't just go around yelling for him like that ;) I guess I'll try not to give him too many false alarms!!!

 It is strange but there is also that side of me now that is thinking, wait a minute, maybe I'm not ready to be taking care of a baby- I like being just 'Dave and I' I am going to miss it- but at the same time, as David pointed out the other day it does kind of feel like this little boy already has a personality and a place in our lives. I want him to have a great home with security in knowing he is loved and that his parents love each other and will provide him with the things that he needs. I also don't know really at what point they are actually aware of anything in the womb- but I like to think that if he is aware of himself right now that he knows what family he is coming to and that he is excited about it. Although anything outside of the cramped space he's in now probably seems delightful. Whenever I get the lovely BH contractions I feel like he is being shrink-wrapped inside me- I feel bad because I think, "well what if he got himself into a really uncomfortable position and then I contract and he is just frozen like that" Maybe I'm strange for thinking things like that but I do it all out of love for this little guy! Anyway I would love any little well wishes from anyone who would like to send happy thoughts our way to encourage this little man child to come on time because we are moving to Boise the 11th of August and it would be quite difficult if he and I are only a couple days out of the hospital and trying to move!

On that same note we have found an apartment- as long as we pass the screening process- I think we have clean histories when it comes to criminal backgrounds and previous rentals so hopefully we're good in that area- the apartment is beautiful and I am hoping it can be a great place for us to plant our feet for at least a year- I am really wanting to make another apartment more like a home rather than just a place we stay for a few months- it seems like we haven't really been anywhere long enough to make this happen yet.



On another last note- we decided to go trade in a couple of our Wii games that we don't play for a couple of new ones...this may or may not have been a bad idea as David is the ultimate comics nerd and we came home with "Marvel Ultimate Alliance"...the following pictures may give you the full idea of the impact this is going to have on my life...

Looks like a serious game doesn't it? Well apparently it is!

Now to direct this drive and focus to Grad School homework...lol